One thing I hear a lot is, don’t be afraid of failure. I recently had a couple lessons in that. At night, I like to watch TV or a movie and craft at the same time. One of my TV projects was a bead crochet rope. Bead crochet is painstaking work and I had been working on it for several months. One night, the thread knotted up. I tried and tried to undo the knot. In the process of doing that, the thread snapped and the project was ruined. I lost months and months of work in a minute. I was incredibly upset and angry. I almost cried. I wondered why even bother making things. I wanted to throw something. Of course no one was home when I wanted some sympathy and I felt very alone. I shamelessly asked for sympathy on Ravelry’s forums and called it a night. After I got some rest and calmed down, I realized I had been lukewarm on the project. Looking back I realized that working on it had been feeling more and more like an obligation rather than fun. I was relieved in a way that it wasn’t sitting on my desk. I also realized I couldn’t let this failure keep me down or from moving forward on other projects. I disciplined myself to work on another beading project and felt better.
A few weeks later, I had made this pendant. I was very blocked on how to finish it. I kept thinking of ideas and rejecting them. In a flash, I realized I was afraid of failure. I realized that I was fearful that my ideas wouldn’t work. I was nervous that I would finish it and it would fall apart. I realized I needed to just do it and not worry if it would come together or not. I decided to go with an idea I had and I finished it that night. I am very happy with the finished project and I learned something. I am realizing that, in order to be more productive in my creative life I need to move past this fear of failure. Losing months of work on that bead crochet project wasn’t as bad or as scary as I thought. Also my fears of how potential projects could fall apart usually don’t come true. If a project does fall apart, I will learn something and I will try another way.